Number 3 Here we come!

Ok, so we've had a bit of time to process our latest negative. I think we really set ourselves up for the disappointment this time. For some reason, not even any concrete symptoms, we had convinced ourselves that the last cycle was the one. Sigh... what a silly thing to do. As much as we have told ourselves in the past that we should be practical and not expect that this will be an easy process its difficult to not get your hopes up. The first IUI (this month) seemed to go super. The second one, not so much... It took much longer and was far more uncomfortable. I really did not want to repeat that experience! Alas, here we are again. I will suck it up and take my chances. Let's just hope that my body cooperates this time.

We decided to move on to a new donor as well. It may not really make a difference, who knows. But I feel like maybe chemistry plays a part. Maybe the last fellow and I just didn't click. :) I know I'm supposed to be patient but patience at $3000 a month only stretches so far!
This new guy has "real" hazel eyes, which we love. I say real because I think often people may say hazel but they are really brown. This fella has parents and a brother all with green eyes. Nothing against brown eyes. Brown eyes are lovely. :) However, I have blue eyes and Chris has beautiful hazel eyes. We would love to have that reflected in our child.
(We have, of course, considered far more than eye color!)

This next month is going to be a bit tough for timing. I ended up starting my cycle yesterday, Friday. Which would be the worst day for me to start. If this cycle goes anything like the last 2 then I'll be due to get ultrasound, trigger and IUIs on a Tues, Wed and Thurs. The worst days for me since I typically work out of town on those exact days. Ugh, now I'll need to more find more excuses for needing to work from home that week. Who knows when my work will start wondering what the hell is going on with me?! Yikes! Yeah, boss, I'm just trying to get pregnant, don't worry at all.

So here's to try #3!! Yahoo! Hurrah! Woo-hoo! 3rd times the charm! I'm gathering that optimism up again. Average time is 3-4 times for my age, right? Here we go!!!!

BFN

Insert swear words here.

Bloat Float

Tie a string to my toe and bring me to the beach. I am bloat. Yes, bloat is me. I have been amazed at how bloated I've been the last week. So much so that I feel like I'm busting through my clothes and becoming a perfect cylindrical shape. Ohhhh the fun of the tww! Otherwise, I've been having crazy-ass vivid dreams and I woke up with a sore throat. Nice, real nice!!
Almost there though! Tuesday is the test. Last cycle I was convinced by this time that I wasn't pregnant. This time, I'm not so sure. Its been a little bit different but not enough to convince me one way or another. Thank goodness the weekend is here. I'm pooped!

We'll also switch to a new donor if this cycle hasn't worked. Funny how I suddenly like the new donor better. Why does that happen? I haven't even found out this cycle is a bust yet?!? :)
We're switching to another bank as well. PRS just hasn't worked out for us very well (my bank account can't take all this action!). So, we'll switch to trusty ole cal cyro. Its seems like a lot of you are also using this one - is that right? Its the one our RE works with most and prefers.

Anyway, off to distract ourselves by having a nice weekend! We (and the dog) need some serious outdoor time! Even if that means rolling my bloaty butt through the rain.

All Hail GORT!

For those of you who were interested in seeing the robot cake - here he is in all his intergalactic glory. Gort is 100% edible - devil's food cake, raspberry filling with creme cheese frosting, twinkies, now and laters, donuts, candy, candy, candy.
He'll be making his way to Angelo's 1st birthday party tomorrow morning. :)


Fun distractions for a TWW.


All Hail Gort!

And we wait again...

Commence the next two week wait!
We had our two IUI appts Tuesday and Weds, and Brandy was such a trooper. The first one went well, and very quick. Weds appt however, took a bit longer and was not so comfy for my girl. Poor thing! She has been on the couch, feeling all crampy and sore for two days. Hopefully it will all be worth it this time! I have a good feeling about this one. We had a total of three follicles, as it turns out. There was 23, 19, and a smaller one on the other side (I forget the exact number). I think our timing was right on for this cycle, but its so hard to know! As our doctor said "Its all a natural process now." Swim, little swimmers, swim! It is still amazing to me that with 33 million swimmers, not ONE can figure out where to go. What is it with guys and asking for directions? lol

So, once again, we are at the "maybe baby" stage. Trying to eat better, and all that jazz. Brandy has been drinking more non-fat milk, and had almost a full can of green beans last night! This combined with oatmeal, bananas, V8 juice, prenatal vitamins... I swear, we have come a very long way from our Jack in the Box days. (Though I do miss my french toast sticks, I must confess.) I really really hope this one works. 10-10-10 would be such an awesome birthday! Our date for the blood test is Feb 2nd. Did I mention that patience is not my thing? Agh...

We are going to try and keep busy so we don't just constantly wonder if we are preggers or not. Brandy still has her Robot cake to do, and we are going to see Eddie Izzard in Oakland on Saturday (yippee!). I don't know exactly what it is, but that man's stand up always puts me in a wonderful mood. I actually got to meet him once, and he took a photo with me. He looks exhausted, probably because he had been signing autographs for three hours prior... But I was thrilled. :)

Lastly, I need to start looking at another sperm bank, just in case. Brandy has already started looking through profiles, but I need to start too. Just in case this one doesn't work, we don't want to work with PRS anymore after our past experiences. So, that means switching donors. To be honest, I really don't like that part of the process at all. I had always hoped for a KD, and looking online at profiles just reminds me of how that option failed. Hopefully we just won't have to worry about that at all. 12 days until our test! Come on, swimmers!!!

Oh! One more sign I had to add... one of my co-workers brought in her 3 month old son to the office for the first time yesterday! He slept perfectly in my arms for a few moments, and less than an hour later I was in the doctors office with Brandy. Maybe its a good omen? I'd like to think so! :)

Trigger Me This

Here we go again! I have 2 plumpy follicles ready to go. Today's ultrasound measured them in at 23 and 19. Nicey-nice. So we triggered and scheduled the first of our 2 IUIs for tomorrow around noon. I'm so glad to be actively doing something again. All this waiting and waiting.
The IUIs aren't the most comfortable procedures but at least I know we have a new chance again. A new possibility. And no estrogen patches this time. Yay! Good lining. Hehe Never did I think I would worry about my uterine lining. Who knew!?
So wish me luck. Swim, swim, swim little guys!

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Testing, testing. That's all.